Rub It Better 'Til It Bleeds

It's become increasingly difficult to find a point in my life where I've felt more overwhelmed with negative thoughts. Most of this has been self-inflicted, which only speeds up the shoveling of dirt.

A few months away from everything, everyone, anything. That uber-appealing hermit lifestyle. Alternative lifestyles always seem more appealing though. It makes you feel closer to individualism; which I feel, doesn't actually exist. Believe me, someone else has already done it.

Have you ever given thought to just bucking the whole system of things, and not actually allowing it to have any power over you? You can take away everything from me. It's empowering and impractical.

I'd like to chill again, but I'm quite self-concious about appearing overly interested in you. You're a much better person than I am, and I wouldn't feel deserving of your form of affection. Or maybe that's just the picture I've painted of you. Besides, you've got plans for your life. I've got pipe dreams; and that's the difference between you and I.

Financial AIDS

Hey! Good news! It looks as though I'll be the single citizen responsible for pulling this country out of it's current economic crisis. See the way I see it, with my student loan payments going UP to nearly $500 a month (which is totally do-able with a job that pays $8.75/hour), I'll be picking us all up from the bootstraps and kicking this economy right back into overdrive.

What's that?! $500 is nearly 50% of my net monthly earnings? Well that seems perfectly feasible. I'll be sure to get that right out.

Maybe it's time to start making this place feel like home. It doesn't look like I'll be able to afford to leave for the next 10 years or so.

Here's the moral of our story, children: Unless your bloodline is in direct contact with the financial powers in this country, it doesn't make sense to go to school. Don't make any mistakes in life. Ever. Youthful mistakes are a luxury afforded only to the rich, powerful, and well-connected. You probably don't fit into any of those categories. You'll be so financially bogged down, barely keeping your neck above the proverbial water would be a blessed relief from your life underwater.

Here's to hoping you can evolve fast. Time to grow some gills.

When You Were Young / William Fitzsimmons

15 months and they would
Drag you from your throne
But you ain't got no place to go
You're the bad one from the day you were born
You can run
I dont think that you can hide

Have you found the knife and cigarettes inside of your locker with your books?
Smoking weed with Joe and Rock inside his house
You can run
I don't think that you can hide

Mom wants you to come back home
She keeps crying when I call her on the phone
Won't you give this thing a chance?
You were not what you were
When you were young
You were not what you were
When you were young

I was fucked up when you needed me the most
Trying to starve myself to death
I still feel like I did something always wrong
You can run
I don't think that you can hide

Mom wants you to come back home
She keeps crying when I call her on the phone
Won't you give this things a chance?
Cause you were not what you were
When you were young
You were not what you were
When you were young

KNRK

*Courtesy of the all-knowing Wikipedia*

The Alternative Declaration
As a result of surveys the station sent out shortly after the Marconi incident which lead to KNRK's remodeling, KNRK introduced the Alternative Declaration in 2004, presented as 11 rules for guiding the way the station presented itself on-air.

1) Music: It's about the music.
2) We Listen to You: We will listen to our listeners and treat them with respect.
3) Artist and Title of Every Song: We will tell you the title and artist of every song we play.
4) Support Local Music: We will support local bands' music and shows.
5) Never Talk Over the Songs: We will respect the music and our listeners by never talking over the songs.
6) New Music: We will seek out and support new music.
7) Knowledgeable D.J.s: We are dedicated to constantly learning and living the music we choose for you. Our DJ's are Greg Glover, Tara Dublin, Gustav, and Squid.
8) Musical Diversity: We believe in diversity and will be open-minded about the music we play.
9) More Than Just Hit Singles: We will play any good song on the album, not just the "hit" single.
10) Surprise You: We will surprise you with the songs you haven't heard in a while.
11) More Songs Less Often: We will play more songs and repeat them less often.

Portland always seems like the coolest town in this country. I'll never work here, but I like to daydream.

Sat Bisla

is the shit.

I should broaden my horizons more. I'm just afraid of being "that guy" who listened to "that" band 4 years ago, and they were waaay better when he was listening to them. Their new album is so fucking contrived.

Muzzle Of Bees is awesome. Indie for Sconnies. Fuck yes.

For The Right Price I Can Get Everything

Fuck, man. I'm just trying to make my student loan payments for the month.

Why so fucking complicated? I can't even get through to my supposed-former loaner.

Princes of the Midwest

My fellow liberals have offered an olive branch to their counterparts. Judging by the status updates of the few conservative Facebook friends I have, I don't think they'll be as receptive as their candidates are to the idea.

I can't help but feel like for no other reason to elect Obama (sans the environment), this country can now work toward reclaiming a stance as a beacon for the world; good moreso than bad.

I didn't vote for Obama based on his race because he didn't choose to make that a central issue to his campaign. I didn't vote for Obama based on his tax policy, viewpoints on abortion, or gay marriage. For God's sake, he wasn't even my first candidate (Kucinich #1 and a longshot).

Think back to George Bush's 2000 campaign promise of running as "a uniter not a divider". There's really no evidence that suggests he ever had intentions of following through with those empty words.

Obama to me, is the epitome of a man who has the ability to unite this country.

I know it's difficult to accept the direction this country will take if you don't agree with Obama policies, but don't write him off. He's not even had a single day in office. Give him a chance. THEN you can form an opinion.

Grasp this olive branch, or burn it.

Burying luck

At the very least you could've been honest with me. Of course I can't (and won't) say anything about it.

Self-hate, self-hate self-hate...

I really hate it when people ask me "What are you up to these days". Instantanious embarassment!

"Oh you know, living at home because I can't afford to move out while I'm working a terrible job where I get attacked every day."

I'm so embarassed with where my life has lead me; or where I've lead my life. Whichever.

Quit falling for friends, or better yet, doing ridiculous drunken things in front of good ones.

I'm relatively sure the more we hang out that my chances continue to dwindle, but I have fun with you.